My personal statement

The reason that I want to go these courses I have applied for is because I want to do something for myself. I've been caring all my life about the people in my life so much that these people now have stopped me to say that I can't continuing to forget about myself anymore. I'm 25 years old, turning 26 this fall. The feeling of being 'too old' for the music industry have crossed my mind a couple of times, the toughest feeling though has been that I don't want to live my life looking back regretting not trying to go after my own dreams. When I need someone I always turn to music. When I listen to music I feel understood. I get my feelings out through the lyrics I hear and the ones I write down myself.  Music is my healing. The first time I turned to music I cant really remember since I've done it since day one. I've always been singing and dancing. The first time I felt my dream for real, the fire burning inside for how badly I wanted it, was when I saw Beyoncé for the fist time in Destiny's child on MTV. I can't remember the year but since that day my passion for music and being a performer has only grown to an even bigger wish for making this my own accomplishment. The most common time when I listen and dream away to music is when I'm on the bus. Music up on full volume and imagine how I would act on stage making the best performance ever. The first time I told myself that it's my time to go after my dreams and goals in life was for two years ago. It happens so much in life in so short time, however my passion and love for this profession only grows bigger for every minute of the day. I've had the opportunity to work with events building up the stages, the preparations for the musicians and the safety that is needed when having festivals/concerts. With the experience of being behind the stage preparing everything for a festival I've got the knowledge of how to build a stage, the importance of the fences around the area and even the tents for shelter of the weather or for food stands. With the experience of being on the stage I've got the knowledge of the importance of the lights, the sounds and even the look of the positions of the band. With the experience of being in front of the stage I've got the knowledge of the importance of safety, not just for the musicians but also for the crowd visiting the festival. With all this amazing experiences it has given me a lot more tools and knowledge about the industry then I knew even existed three years ago. This is something I have been around since I was around six years old, performing and making shows. I'm no longer satisfied with watching other people perform as a person of the crowd. It may have taken me some years to grow the courage to apply for this massive dream I have, but I have always been ready to take this step and make my dream an everyday life. I am amazing when I work with music, I love to express myself through lyrics and voice, I am actually quite good at it and I love to see others be as creative as me. I can have my moments when I don't feel good at what I do because of the reason that I listen to someone other then myself that is great. But this gives me an perspective of not just music but of the massive industry of amazing people I get so inspired by. I am very driven, might be a bit perfectionist but I always finish what I start. This is going to be scary, no doubt, but this is what I dream of and I have a way to big fire inside to just ignore it like it isn't there. I have no idea of how hard competition it is to get in on BIMM but I can imagine that there are many talented people trying to go there. I can only continue dreaming away for this journey to start 'til the day I get the result of being accepted or not. I want this so bad, I can't really explain it to well. I can however tell you and promise you that you wont regretting having me as one of your students. The motivation for this trip is beyond words.

Yours sincerely,

Ceciliah Karlsson